I can't believe how long it has been since I actually wrote a blog. I don't think I have had time to just sit down and think lately. My life has changed so much in the last year. Gerardo and I have had our ups and downs, and of course some really scary times too. When my husband had his stroke last December I was unsure what was next. Our God has been so faithful to us and we have stood strong on His promises. I must confess though that there have been moments that I have felt a bit like I can't find my footing. I am so thankful for a God who is strong and unmoved by the ever changing times and drama of my life. Our life looks so different now that it did six months ago. The Lord had entrusted us with more that I ever thought we could handle at one time. We have to start each day reminding ourselves that we are not in charge and that His plans are better than ours. I usually have no idea what a day will bring since everyday is different. We have a rough schedule and everything else is filled in with phone calls, paperwork, meetings, visits and a whole lot of drama. This has been a good time for us as we have nothing but the Lord to trust in. Our faith has been shaken and challenged yet grown so much stronger than before. We love these children that He has placed in our care, we have no idea how long they will be here for but as long as they are we will love them and do the best we can. To Him all the glory and honor, not our will but His.

 But I know when I'll be back again........... April 14th just in case you were wondering.

To say that I have had a long and interesting month would be a HUGE understatement. I can't really go into all the details but I am sure most of you know what I am talking about. For those of you that don't here is a quick update(while still respecting privacy). Our family welcomed three little ones into our home for an unknown amount of time. These children will be living with us and be part of our family, and we will raise them until God is ready for them to go back home to their parents. I have to say that I am incredibly excited to have three children under the age of five in the house. Although Gerardo and I are unable to have children of our own the Lord has been sending little ones( and even a few big ones) by the handful. In January Gerardo's younger brother moved in with us and two months ago eighteen year old Anna moved in with us too. Our house is quite full but I am loving every minute of it. I have to say that seeing little socks and toys all over the place is strange but something I am slowly getting use to. Marisssa is REALLY enjoying having some little ones to watch over too. She has been asking me to babysit for a while but we really haven't felt she is ready, I guess this is her opportunity to show us "what she's made of". Which I am sure all of you know is sugar and spice and everything nice .

As if our lives weren't busy enough tomorrow we are leaving for Mexico. Our long awaited trip that had to be postponed due to Gerardo's stroke in December. My husband is doing great by the way, the Lord has healed his body and he is getting stronger everyday! Amen. Our trip will be nine days long and I can't wait. I am really scared of flying though so that will be interesting. You'd think after all my travels I would feel safe but that is not the case. But I guess after today's church service I will just have to say I serve a sovereign God and He will do with me what He will.

Yesterday we dropped the children off( minus Rissa) at a faithful family in the Lord's house. I cried like a baby and when I saw them today at church it was hard for me to say goodbye again. I am trying not to get too attached to these children because I know they will be going back home at some point. I think the plan right now is for the children to be with us for a good amount of time though. Only God knows and for now that will have to be good enough.

On an ending note I am really excited to have Marissa on this trip to Mexico with us. Over the last year my daughter has grown into an amazing young woman in the Lord. She has a hunger and thirst for the Lord, and it helps to have other strong woman pouring into her( thank you Carina). I am blessed to have a daughter who prays for me and listens for the voice of the Lord. She wants to serve God and it shows in all that she does. I can't wait to see what her future holds and I wish I was as awesome as her. Please pray for our family for safe travels and that our hearts would be set on the goal that is Christ. He is our only prize and all that we do should be for Him, even if that means laying down our life for Him. Our lives are not our own and I want to honor Him in all that I do. I know that I can't please or make everyone happy. Many will be offended by who I am and the choices that I make but all that I do is for Him ALONE..... That I may always remember that, amen.

 

 I met with my doctor last week to go over the results of my MRI. The doctor could see the lump on the back of my neck and found two other ones that I didn't know about. He made it clear that it was not cancer but is unsure what to do with them now. He also said that I have something called chronic sinus disease, I have no idea what that means though. Anyway he put me on some meds to try and clear up whatever it is that is making my headaches turn into migraines. The meds worked for about three days but now the headaches are back worse than ever. I could really use some prayer for healing. This morning Marissa had to take care of herself, luckily she's eleven and knows how to take care of herself for a bit of time. She tried to make me breakfast and prayed for me, what a great daughter she is. I am headed back to the doctor in about a half hour to see what he thinks. I don't know how much longer I can go on with my head feeling like it does. The pain in my head is starting to effect my life enough that others are noticing. This weekend we are going to NYSUM in NYC and there is no way that I will be able to do anything if my head feels like this. I am trusting the Lord for healing and thankful that He uses doctors sometimes to heal us but this time it seems that even the doctor doesn't know. I will update later.